-I Want to Believe-

OMG.

2009-12-27T18:38:19Z

This update could probably be as long as a novel. SO much crap has happened in the last month. Some good, some bad. But all friggin crazy. It has truly been the most chaotic Christmas I have ever had. I don't even want to expalin all of it- I'll just sum up.

Skye and Bill sadly ended their relationship, but now She and Amie have their own girlie apartment- which is happy. They'll do so much better now without all the stress and tension. So that's good. But Bill keeps being awkwardly involved and it can be irksome for the rest of us.

Anthony and I went back and forth, but as of right now it's done. We're each going to sort our lives out and see where we end up. It wasn't a bitter end, which makes me happy. So it's sort of a limbo state of paused.

Went to the drum circle last night which was AMAZING. The big time drummers were there and it was just fantastic. Nothing helps like dancing around the bonfire :) A fantastic time was had by all.

Christmas was good- just the family and very informal. I like it much better that way. Maddie loved everything she got- which was more than we originally planned on, but buying things over a period of time is much better than doing it all at once. And I played Santa at 3am Christmas Eve cause mom's horrible at it, lol.

So now I sit here at work thanking the Gods it's a slow Sunday. Tonight I shall go home, color my hair, do a face mask, shower, read, have tea, and bask in girlie wonderfulness.

Happy :)

2009-11-06T00:59:53Z

I'm sitting on Skye's porch, loving every chilly minute.
I have to cherish and appreciate the weather while I can.
It makes me happy :D

I'm working at her shop till Saturday with Judy.
Which is all sorts of win.
She's fantastic.
And I love the shop.

Wednesday is my 21st Birthday :DDDD
EPIC AWESOME.
Mom and I are going to Disney, cause I get free admission on my birthday.
We went last year too, and it was awesome.
So I'm stoked.

Boo should be here on Friday.
We may go to the SHS football game.
Since it's the last one of the season.
And I want to show him off <3

Sooo happyyyy.

Thanks, Universe ^.^

2009-10-22T03:35:13Z

It always seems that when shit hits the fan, everything works itself out. Everything. I just have to have this faith that I keep reassuring in others. To trust what I do, and know what I know- you think I'd freak out less. But somehow I always seem to lose myself in the confusion. Oh well, everything's fine =D

Things are looking up. I'm learnin mah witchy stuff, and it's phenomenal. Workin on my photography, too.

Chillin in Sarasota a lot. I love this place <3

Aaaand I'm quickly losing interest in this post, sorry for the waste of your time XDD

I'm so effing happy.

2009-09-23T03:56:16Z

Everything is just... wonderful.

Saturday night Anthony proposed to me. (Of course I said yes).
I'm so glad our closest circle of friends were there, and mom.
Well, except Judy- but she was there in spirit. She knew about it, lol.
I really couldn't be happier.

Generally my life is always in this constant state of chaos.
But lately everything is just coming together so nicely.
I'm going to pursue my photography.
I'm learning so much from Skye.
And I have a really good general plan..
I like it.

Secrets are written in the sky.

2009-08-04T02:02:06Z

Oooh lordie. So much has been going on.

Right now I'm cleaning, and listening to the incredibly wonderful Robert Plant & Alison Krauss CD. It makes me endlessly happy.

Skye moved her shop up to the Hill. Corrin, Anthony, and I spent at least 30 hours helping her paint. Fabulous pictures are on Facebook. It was amazing and blissful. I'm so happy she'll be closer. And that she's gonna train me to run the shop <3

Things are looking up- minus the fact that I haven't gotten paid in over a month >.> Joe's really lost his mind. We've got lots to work out on that end, and I have to see how often Skye wants me working. HOPEFULLY A LOT! lol.

Other than the work thing, I'm ridiculously happy with life. I've been taking many trips to Sarasota <3 Actually this summer I've driven all over the place. Hurray for Sophie being such a rough and tumble ride. XD

I can't find my notebook, and that's pissing me off for the last few weeks. My super writer's notebook that I've been keeping for over two years. YEAH THAT ONE. No clue where it is. x_x;;;;;

GAH.

lancheney @ 2009-06-28T19:08:00

2009-06-28T23:10:02Z

ZOMGWTFBBQ I"M SO PISSED!

Somehow, in my infinite stupidity, I managed to delete my ENTIRE folder of icons.
I HAD A ZILLION! Fantastic epically awesome icons. GONE.
GONE.

...

FML.

Free love in the streets - but in the alley it ain't that cheap.

2009-05-14T00:13:52Z

Why am I unhappy in this chaos I have created?
Everything is of my own design, and yet fulfillment escapes me.
Sometimes I feel fine, and others I feel lost.
I get too easily attatched and offended by things that I'm not in control over.

And my shift key, and the T are starting to stick on my keyboard, and it's pissing me off. UGH.

Captain's Log- Stardate 5-13-2009:
Star Trek was AMAZING though.
HOLY SHIT.
I didn't think I'd like the cast, but they were perfect.
Bones <3<3<3
AND SHAUN OF THE DEAD AS SCOTTY WAS EFFING PERFECT.
I even liked the kid who played Kirk.
It was so perfectly amazing.
And CAMERON FROM HOUSE WAS KIRK'S MOM.
And I'm pretty sure Dr. Beckett from Stargate Atlantis was one of the guys calling cadets onto their ships. <3<3<3
End Captain's Log.

There's my dork rant.

2nd entry today- shut up.

2009-04-12T03:59:10Z

"But all I've got is a photograph
And I realize you're not coming back anymore..."

And I'm okay with it.

I realized the other day, that for the first time in... 5 years, I can say that I don't love him anymore. And it doesn't hurt. There was always a small part of me that did, no matter what. But as I said, I realized the other day that the small part of me is gone.
I'm so fucking happy.

There are many players in this game for me to thank.
I'm free <3

lancheney @ 2009-04-11T23:19:00

2009-04-12T03:22:46Z

So I'm in love with David Tennant.
For those who don't know, he was Barty Crouch Jr. in Harry Potter,
and he's the 10th Doctor of Doctor Who.
Aaand I'd have his time-lording babies.

Meh. I've gotta play easter bunny tonight. Lol, always fun since mom crashes at like 9.
Thankfully everythings closed tomorrow.

Next week won't be fun- since I'm working EVERY SINGLE DAY.
Monday- Sephora
Tuesday- Bean
Wednesday- Sephora
Thursday- Bean
Friday- Bean
Saturday- Sephora
Sunday- Bean

FTW.

PLUS, there's still much to plan for BeanStock, but I'm SO excited about it. :D It's the first major major event I've ever planned. STOKED.

lancheney @ 2009-04-02T04:20:00

2009-04-02T08:21:33Z

I am such a trainwreck.

lancheney @ 2009-03-27T02:07:00

2009-03-27T06:11:48Z

You can't leave.
I never got to say goodbye.

=(

Much ado about everything.

2009-03-23T06:06:10Z

Ahh, it's been awhile since I've updated anything besides my icons. I actually like that nobody really checks their LJs anymore- that way I can vent and rant with somewhat discretion.

I've been working A LOT lately, and it's really taking it's toll. Not as bad as it was a few weeks ago. But every time I get a day off I get called in somewhere. Tomorrow I work at Sephora, Tuesday I have class, and then Wednesday is my Epcot Day! I'm so exciteddddd!! I friggin love Epcot. Tis the shit, as they say.

I have so much cleaning to do. My kitchen is a permanant disaster. Kinda the same way with my bathroom counters. Makeup and sample jars everywhere!! Ahh!! And I've not put laundry away for days. I think it's going to suffocate me.

Tonight I'm coloring my hair (going a much lighter than it is now shade of strawberry blonde). And I'm gonna sort thru the pictures I took today at Steph's baby's blessingway. It was so great, and I'm so happy I went, even if it was just for awhile. That girl means the world to me. We can not say a word for months and pick up right where we left off. She's one of the closest people to me, and I don't have too many people like that anymore. <3 Much love to her and her beautiful chubby-cheeked baby. She's an amazing mother.

Alright, enough procrastinating for one night. At least I don't work till 5 tomorrow so I can sleep in for the first time in many moons.

The Kiss

2009-03-02T03:07:42Z

It was an abnormally cold night, with the sky coated in grey clouds.
No moon shone, nor stars.
They stood outside to say their goodbyes.
She leaned against her car.
He was standing before her.
Teasing him about lust and love.
Blushing cheeks, heartfelt laughter.
Surprise and butterflies.
He took her face in his hands-
And kissed her.
With that she was content.

3-1-09
<3

Miffed!

2009-02-06T06:12:47Z

Aaaaaaaaaaand I'm freezing.

Haven't updated here in awhile, I've been focusing on Facebook so even myspace has been neglected.
But right now I'm miffed, and I don't have anywhere else to vent.

So I was reading SOMEONE'S 25 random facts meme on Facebook, and that SOMEONE mentioned that THEY missed having a girlfriend in life to share things with, but that THEY would rather not have one than be friends with THEIR former (because THEY'RE a better person without them).
***ah hem*** FEEL FREE TO EAT ME ON A RITZ CRACKER YOU DOUCHEBAGEL.
No really.

I love how after everymotherfucking thing THEY can STILL look back in their twisted mind and find a way to blame everything on me. YOU'RE the one who left. YOU LEFT. And don't tell me that I should have been my own motherfucking person. When we relied on eachother like extra limbs and then you pull the rug out from under me and expect me to be okay? NO. It doesn't happen like that. It was US. Not me relying on you. It was US depending on eachother. I'm not the needy one who just had to sink their claws into the first fish that took the bait. I'm GOOD. But after all we'd been through, that you can still honestly say to yourself that it was my fault. When boyfriend #1 went away for like 3 months and you cried on the way home, who held you? When you left boyfriend #1 for Hump-N-Dump and you freaked out over the whole situation, who was there to comfort you and carry you through it? When your mom was being a douche and made you stay home and do the whole family's damn laundry who was there folding right beside you? OH WAIT- THAT WOULD BE ME.
It hurts, it really does. And that's why I'm so angry (and I'm FUCKING COLD- did I mention that????)

With the exception of this rant, I'm over it. And over you. I've been blessed with the ability to completely cut people out of my life and not think twice about it. Truly I'm the one who is far better off without you. I have found, and am still finding my full potential and I couldn't have done it with you. So thank you for beating the shit out of me so that I could build up my callouses and be stronger. Oh, and EAT ME.

lancheney @ 2009-01-02T14:35:00

2009-01-02T19:38:00Z

I never make resolutions, because I never follow through.
So I suppose following through should be a resolution, lol.

"Goals for the New Year":
- Read more books, and always make time for reading.
- Go back to school.
- Come up with a general idea for a career.
- Do something for myself (not necessarily indulgent) as often as possible.
- Have more reasons to wear my hawtt shoes.
- Not shun my friends when they ask me to do something because I'm a hermit.
- Learn to cook = eat out less.
- Create something every day.

FUCK today.

2009-01-01T06:58:34Z

Not the worst day ever, but still relatively horrible.
All the little things that could have gone wrong, did.
And it's been massive gay.

For the first time in as long as I can remember I didn't watch the ball drop.
I got into pajamas, watched House, and then said, OH it's 12:01 at midnight.
Stereotypical spam texts, some Facebook comments.
And that's about it.

I really hope that my karma was getting out all the bad crap before the year started.
Because if the new year is as crappy as tonight- please kill me now.

Here's to hoping the new year brings opportunities, happiness, and more happiness.

Christmas Spirit

2008-12-20T05:51:21Z

I'm all about it.

Today was pretty eventful. Went lots of places and spent a lot of time in NPR.
Got some spifftastic things <3
Like two more Polaroids to add to my apparently growing collection.

Now I'm baking like a mo-fo and preparing for the morrow.
Cleaned up the kitchen, finishing my Christmas wrapping.
Listening to some tunes and accomplishing some thaaaangs.

JIMMY FALLON EVERYBODY! Aghhhhhh- RESPECT!

Not enough hours...

2008-12-15T07:20:10Z

I have so much to do, and I've already done so much.
This will be my motivation to finish things.

What I Did:
- Worked.
- Shopped.
- Picked up Christmas tree from mom.
- Wrestled with Christmas tree.
- Pause for Facebook.
- Round 2 with Christmas tree.
- Win the fight.
- Put on ornaments.
- Download Christmas songs from Sephora.
- Had Wendy's.

Need to Do:
- A load of laundry
- Clean the Living Room
- Wrap some presents
- Plan a few more presents
- Put boxes in garage
- Put stuff from car in garage

I'm going straight to hell.

2008-12-10T06:54:18Z

The Worst Christmas Card EVAR:

"Happy Christmas!
I know I hurt you, and I know you're still in love with me.
But apparently I can't let your wound heal,
Which is why I'm sending this card.
To let you know that I still think about you
But I still can't be with you.
Have a great holiday!

- Love, Liana."

Considerably less miserable than before

2008-12-07T07:27:35Z

So I had to wallow in my misery for awhile, but now I'm quite fine. Lol!

Although I'm hating on my job.
Well no, not my job.
I LOVE MY JOB.
I'm hating on the management.
It's just immature and drama-filled bullshit.
That I really don't think belongs in management.
But WHATEVERRR.

So that's massive ghey.

I had a fun day of shopping today tho =D
So that was happy.
That's about it. lol.

m.i.s.e.r.a.b.l.e.

2008-12-05T07:46:35Z

Yeah, that's me.

And I know it's my fault.
And I hate me.
And I hate him for making me hate me.
And I hate me some more.
And I haven't stopped crying since I started yesterday.
And working inbetween crying hasn't been fun.
And I don't think I can handle another breakdown.
And I'm terrified.

FUCKKKKKKK.

Remember to let her into your heart; then you can start to make it better...

2008-12-01T05:44:31Z

And any time you feel the pain- Hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

I never stop loving it.

Well I did accomplish a bit today.
Got the laundry and towels put away, which was my main concern.
Helped mom unpack and sort thru some Christmas stuff.
Hopefully I'll find another tree tomorrow >.>
And I bought some MORE beautiful ornaments from Michael's cause they were on sale.

I got some fun pictures of my kitty, which I'll hopefully post soon.
I love that he just lays there while I snap snap snap away.

I need new neon green nailpolish.
AND I DON'T NEED ANY MORE FUCKING EYESHADOW! EVER!!!!!
(I'm a makeup whore fo sho)

I need to finish my multifandom mood theme.
I may work on that tonight.

Your mouth says no, but your eyes say ZOMGWTFBBQ?!?!?!?!

2008-11-27T06:24:56Z

The passage of time never ceases to amaze me.
From days turning into months, and then years.
Or time dragging when you're miserable, or flying when you're happy.

I haven't accomplished ANYTHING that I set out to do today.
I hate that.
I was in the process of cleaning, but I'm easily distracted tonight.
Oh well.

I am excited for Black Friday sales!!
Working 3-11:30. Thankfully I'm not opening at 4am.
But if I'm still awake I'm definitely going to see Jesse and Felicia.

I was watching Ghost Hunters tonight and they went to an old asylum.
Those and old hospitals are my favorite places to be haunted. Lol.
Something about experimental and demented medical treatments gets me every time. XD

Hmm, what's new?
I GOT A PIMP JACKET!
Pic on facebook- I'm so in love with it.
It was $30 at Goodwill, and worth every fucking penny.

I get paid Friday- and I'm gonna finish up my Christmas shopping for mom and grandma at Sephora.
Cause I got a coupon for $15 off a purchase of $35 or more. Perfection.
Mom's getting the Rocker Eye Kit, and Grandma's getting the Meet the Browns (because she's rather plain with her eyeshadow) both by Bare Escentuals. Huzzah! And I may have to get a little sumthin sumthin for myself =D

I'm thinkin that's about it.

I'm in love with John Legend's voice.

2008-11-17T05:15:53Z

Work went well tonight, closed with Amberrr =D
Aaand I'm off until Friday!
THURSDAY is Disney with mom! I'm stooookkkeeeddd.
And tomorrow I have to finish laundry, vacuum the haus, and clean the kitchen.
AND I work at the Green Bean tomorrow and Tuesday, because Ashley's not back yet.
Blehh, lol.

I think that sometimes people say things out loud to try and make it true.
That somehow actually saying it will validate whatever it is.

I'm gonna look for some new LJ icons tonight.
I have to decide on a new theme.
Christmas-y? Maybe Nightmare Before Christmas-
Or perhaps just Tim Burton in general <3

lancheney @ 2008-11-16T00:30:00

2008-11-16T08:40:38Z

I love that people can tolerate/see past my crazy. Lol.

Work was pretty decent- minus hating customers, but it's usually not their fault.
It's that Amanda keeps telling us to sample shit to people.
BUT we have nothing to put the samples in.
Soooooo we can't really give them samples. LOL.

But lunch was very nice <3
And then I went all out and bought a new foundation.
And the Cargo holiday palette- which is lovely.

Hmm, what else?
I think I'm gonna give Amber my shift Wednesday, so that way I'm off Monday thru Thursday.
Thursday being mom and I's trip to Disney!
I'm soooo stoked!