I'm sitting on Skye's porch, loving every chilly minute.
I have to cherish and appreciate the weather while I can.
It makes me happy :D

I'm working at her shop till Saturday with Judy.
Which is all sorts of win.
She's fantastic.
And I love the shop.

Wednesday is my 21st Birthday :DDDD
EPIC AWESOME.
Mom and I are going to Disney, cause I get free admission on my birthday.
We went last year too, and it was awesome.
So I'm stoked.

Boo should be here on Friday.
We may go to the SHS football game.
Since it's the last one of the season.
And I want to show him off <3

Sooo happyyyy.

It always seems that when shit hits the fan, everything works itself out. Everything. I just have to have this faith that I keep reassuring in others. To trust what I do, and know what I know- you think I'd freak out less. But somehow I always seem to lose myself in the confusion. Oh well, everything's fine =D

Things are looking up. I'm learnin mah witchy stuff, and it's phenomenal. Workin on my photography, too.

Chillin in Sarasota a lot. I love this place <3

Aaaand I'm quickly losing interest in this post, sorry for the waste of your time XDD

Everything is just... wonderful.

Saturday night Anthony proposed to me. (Of course I said yes).
I'm so glad our closest circle of friends were there, and mom.
Well, except Judy- but she was there in spirit. She knew about it, lol.
I really couldn't be happier.

Generally my life is always in this constant state of chaos.
But lately everything is just coming together so nicely.
I'm going to pursue my photography.
I'm learning so much from Skye.
And I have a really good general plan..
I like it.

Oooh lordie. So much has been going on.

Right now I'm cleaning, and listening to the incredibly wonderful Robert Plant & Alison Krauss CD. It makes me endlessly happy.

Skye moved her shop up to the Hill. Corrin, Anthony, and I spent at least 30 hours helping her paint. Fabulous pictures are on Facebook. It was amazing and blissful. I'm so happy she'll be closer. And that she's gonna train me to run the shop <3

Things are looking up- minus the fact that I haven't gotten paid in over a month >.> Joe's really lost his mind. We've got lots to work out on that end, and I have to see how often Skye wants me working. HOPEFULLY A LOT! lol.

Other than the work thing, I'm ridiculously happy with life. I've been taking many trips to Sarasota <3 Actually this summer I've driven all over the place. Hurray for Sophie being such a rough and tumble ride. XD

I can't find my notebook, and that's pissing me off for the last few weeks. My super writer's notebook that I've been keeping for over two years. YEAH THAT ONE. No clue where it is. x_x;;;;;

GAH.

ZOMGWTFBBQ I"M SO PISSED!

Somehow, in my infinite stupidity, I managed to delete my ENTIRE folder of icons.
I HAD A ZILLION! Fantastic epically awesome icons. GONE.
GONE.

...

FML.

Why am I unhappy in this chaos I have created?
Everything is of my own design, and yet fulfillment escapes me.
Sometimes I feel fine, and others I feel lost.
I get too easily attatched and offended by things that I'm not in control over.

And my shift key, and the T are starting to stick on my keyboard, and it's pissing me off. UGH.

Captain's Log- Stardate 5-13-2009:
Star Trek was AMAZING though.
HOLY SHIT.
I didn't think I'd like the cast, but they were perfect.
Bones <3<3<3
AND SHAUN OF THE DEAD AS SCOTTY WAS EFFING PERFECT.
I even liked the kid who played Kirk.
It was so perfectly amazing.
And CAMERON FROM HOUSE WAS KIRK'S MOM.
And I'm pretty sure Dr. Beckett from Stargate Atlantis was one of the guys calling cadets onto their ships. <3<3<3
End Captain's Log.

There's my dork rant.

"But all I've got is a photograph
And I realize you're not coming back anymore..."

And I'm okay with it.

I realized the other day, that for the first time in... 5 years, I can say that I don't love him anymore. And it doesn't hurt. There was always a small part of me that did, no matter what. But as I said, I realized the other day that the small part of me is gone.
I'm so fucking happy.

There are many players in this game for me to thank.
I'm free <3

So I'm in love with David Tennant.
For those who don't know, he was Barty Crouch Jr. in Harry Potter,
and he's the 10th Doctor of Doctor Who.
Aaand I'd have his time-lording babies.

Meh. I've gotta play easter bunny tonight. Lol, always fun since mom crashes at like 9.
Thankfully everythings closed tomorrow.

Next week won't be fun- since I'm working EVERY SINGLE DAY.
Monday- Sephora
Tuesday- Bean
Wednesday- Sephora
Thursday- Bean
Friday- Bean
Saturday- Sephora
Sunday- Bean

FTW.

PLUS, there's still much to plan for BeanStock, but I'm SO excited about it. :D It's the first major major event I've ever planned. STOKED.
 

I am such a trainwreck.

You can't leave.
I never got to say goodbye.

=(